vicwithacam: (Default)
2014-07-17 12:44 pm
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It has been a long time everyone! Sorry about not writing anything for almost a year. Its been busy as ever.

I had a job for over a year as you know, but recently I was put on disability. The reasoning I believe this may have happened was due to coming out. One of the managers ended up turning out to be a transphobic person who talked behind my back and treat me badly. She proceeded to call me by female pronouns even when I explained I was male. When I told her the name I preferred she said she believed that I chose the name because it sounded like Lucifer. Which is utter bullshit.

So months after she found out one of my bosses came in and told me that one of the managers complained because I have short term memory loss. they wanted proof and my doctor actually denied it. But he wrote a different note that wasn't worded correctly and wrote that I couldn't do any sort of multitasking. In the end that got me on disability for 6 months.

So that's the biggest update I have.
vicwithacam: (me?)
2013-05-31 05:32 pm
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New Job!

Well I had a job interview a couple weeks ago and was super nervous. The first job interview I had was absolutely terrible and I have a feeling I ended up giving a bad first impression due to nerves. Thankfully though this one I was relaxed and happy to meet the manager who was to interview me. He was nice and really cool to talk with during my interview and for once I was smiling and laughing during the interview.
The last question of the interview was about why I chose to try to work at Taco Bell in which I told him a heart felt statement that I myself was impressed with. He smiled and asked me to do a second interview on Monday.
Monday rolled around and I expected to meet with the manager again but instead I met with another manager named Katie. She was pretty nice to and after a couple questions she told me I was hired. I ordered my uniform and a week later it was in.
My first day at work was this Wends and I had such a nice time. It's been pretty neat so far and I'm happy to be working there. So that's about it with me.
vicwithacam: (Always Safe with Daddy-Bioshock)
2013-05-18 10:22 pm
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Updates

Recently I've been away from Dreamwidth due to my depression taking over my life. I ditched math class for nearly 2 months due to my anxiety and depression so I ended up failing the final and all that jazz. English on the other hand was wonderful. I ended up passing that class with a B even though I failed showing up for nearly a month.
I talked with my grandmother and we decided it would be best if I took a semester off. While I take it off I will be getting a full time job. I have a second interview at taco Bell on Monday to see If I have the job.
That is really it for now everyone.
vicwithacam: (one of those days)
2013-04-02 08:34 pm
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Oh the Joys of a Bad Day

So today I went to school tired and not feeling at all well. We had a test in English class that wasn't such a big deal and I decided to go in a bit late, work on some of the things that needed to be done before class I could hand in.
I walked into the study building where my friends were and a guy stopped me, for the life of me I can't remember his name. I think it's Michael or maybe Justin. Anyways he introduced himself and commented on my shirt, considering that it was a shirt with my old high school on it. I talked with him briefly before going to my friends and he proceeded to follow me. He stopped me and asked me if come Monday he could take me to dinner, get to know me. Well that told me one) I didn't pass today and two) that I had another guy asking me out. I panicked.

I had a sick feeling in my stomach the whole class period and when my gma picked me up I told her. Instead of her understanding she began to demand to know why I didn't want to go out with a guy she didn't even know. I tried to tell her a good excuse but she didn't take any of them and continued to demand.So I finally said it wasn't my devision considering Sherlock joke. She didn't take it as one.

She looked at me and said "You're really using the gay card on me??" then stopped talking to me completely.

So after we got home she sat down and refused to talk to me and gpa took me with him to get plant food and his medication. While we were in the car he listened to me as I sobbed and told him how I felt. When we got his medication and as we were driving to Lowes I finally admitted that I was trans to him and he took it extremely well. So there was a plus.

Any that's kind of been my day.
vicwithacam: (me?)
2013-04-02 12:24 pm
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Possibly Selling things

Hello everyone! I have a quick question.

For a while now my one and only chest binder has been ripping due to the fact my grandparents put it in the washer and it shrunk. Now I am seeking to get 3 new ones. Sadly that can be anywhere from $89.00 plus tax to-119.99 plus tax. I, sadly, only have around $17 to my name.
So-I am thinking about selling my DVDs, cosplays, and mangas. I guess what I'm asking was if they were in good condition would anyone be willing to buy any? The most I would sell my mangas for would be around $5 each. The DVDs would be a bit more but not to much. (Except a box set in my possession.)
vicwithacam: (one of those days)
2013-02-24 12:49 pm

good and bad day

Last night I went to bed around midnight and ended up waking up every hour or two due to nightmares. Instead of sleeping in which is my normal thing on Sundays considering Monday through Friday I am wake up at around 8 am. Normally it wouldn't be a big deal for me to get up early but considering I most likely only got around 4 hours of sleep max last night I wasn't to happy about getting up.
I got up and cleaned my room, took a shower, and grabbed some food before being told I was getting $60 today because the family check came in. So it became a bit brighter considering today I am heading to the store and grabbing season 6 of Supernatural to enjoy in the comforts of my room for a few days.

Other than that school is going pretty well, tomorrow I am going to pizza with my friends. Hopefully everything will be alright and things will go wonderfully.
vicwithacam: (me?)
2013-02-20 09:13 am
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Current Events

Oh wow everyone, it has been so long since I posted anything! So where to begin I wonder?

Well a couple weeks ago I spent a lot of time with my friends Quinnton and Everett. We all just jumped into Everett's car and had a good time running around town. Everett had a couple errands he had to run. One of those errands was to go to the police department and get a parking ticket paid before we did anything else. Well we went to the adress that was given but instead of it being the police department we were brought to a church. Us being in the lgbt groups have had a bit of a bad experiance with churches and things so it ended with Everett going in to ask if it was the police department before running out of the building and going "Oh lord, it was a church." and all of us burst into laughter.
We picked up a girl named Van who lives in Sacramento and spent some time with her in the town we were all in. It was an all in all good day, absolutely perfect and lifed my spirits a lot.

Time went by, there wasn't anything really that great about the past couple weeks. Then 3 days ago I got a happy spike and was all smiles and felt good about myself because I happened to pass for 2 days straight. I ended up starting up my job search again and have now sent out 14 applications and I am really hoping to fill more out and possibly get a job soon. Wish me luck everyone.
vicwithacam: (slendy)
2013-02-09 11:28 pm
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New Fandom

So last night I was minding my own buisness when a friend of mine skyped me. We hadn't talked for a while so I happily looked at their IM before seeing them telling me to try watching Lost Girl. Now currently I just got into a shitload of fandoms. Books, TV shows, etc. I didn't feel I had time to that was until she said Slenderman was in it.

Now I know a few of you are rolling your eyes and thinking I'm the person who played slender and became a fan that way. Nope.Not true. I've been into slenderman for years now, actually I found out about him in around 2010 or so and fell for the wonderful Marble Hornet series soon after.

Since Marble Hornets came out I've found it a bit hard to find fans until low and behold that Slender game came out and kind of ruined it. I mean I see girls and guys saying they think Slendy just wants a friend and others that say they want to fuck him and I'm just kind of done. But to hear Lost girl came out and made him scary again is just amazing.

So I tried watching the first season and low and behold I adore the show far more than I should. So does anyone else like it? I must know more Lost girl fans.
vicwithacam: (Cass)
2013-02-03 12:08 am
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New book update

SO I recently finished chapter one of my book...well more like a prologue to the story in actuality about a week or so ago. I haven't been motivated enough to continue it because my depression sucks but hopefully I'll be able to work on it a bit more and get remotivated.

Anyways I made two character journals of the characters in my book. One is a faun who has slowly made their way to becoming one of the main characters and the second one is the evil thing in the book.

There's Crowl who is the evil one in the book:

And Skylar the faun:
vicwithacam: (dean/castiel)
2013-01-22 10:39 pm
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So I'm writing my first book

First draft for chapter one if finished and my friend is reading it I am so excited. Chapter two should be done tomorrow if I could ever get around to it.
vicwithacam: (real men read)
2013-01-18 11:20 pm

Today plus new book reading

So today I went to have pizza for an hour with Everett, Quinnton, and a girl named Marian who is from the pride center.We talked about all sorts of things there from fandoms, books, schooling, traveling all over the place, ect. It turned out all of them were cosplayers and we found ourselves excitedly talking about contacts, wigs, and costumes before I looked at my clock on my phone. It was 5 minutes before Quin's class, I quickly alerted him and he simply shrugged, having to much of a good time before we all continued into our conversations.
Everett got up and spent 5 dollars trying to play the claw games in the arcade area of the pizza place while Quin, Marian, and myself continued talking a bit contently. It was an insanely wonderful time. When it was finally time to leave we all happily got out from our seats and when asked what we wanted to do from there on (Because by this time Quin's class was long over) Marian quickly shouted "The mall!"
Everett drived us litterally acrossed the street to the mall, on the way we went through his ipod and blasted Blink 182 like 8th graders trying to attempt at being cool. Quin, thinking it would be a good idea to party in the back started 'dancing', head banding until his glasses fell off and ironically through his nose ring before painfully being pulled out by him. That was the immediate sign to him to stop being such a party animal while the driver and other people seated throughout the car were unable to party with him.
I contacted my grandmother considering that she was supposed to pick me up after one and she told me that she wouldn't be there for a while. We relaxed and looked at contact lenses before Everett happily mentioned that if we had nothing to do for an hour we could always go to a cosplay wig store in the town that he went to for all his cosplay wigs and contacts.
I attempted to contact my grandmother and let her know but she didn't pick up so I shrugged it off and hopped back into the car with them before we started out way down the road passed the other mall. Before we were able to pass it my grandma texted me 'I'll be there in 20 minutes' which to my dismay made me ask them to drop me off at the mall before they looked at cosplay. They awwed and booed before letting me out and I sadly walked into Barnes and Nobles while my friends continued to have a great time.

Skip to tonight; I finished Good Omens for a second time and realized that it still gives me feels. I set it on my bookshelf where my old books I had gotten from France and England were patiently waiting for me before I took one I got after that trip. I picked up the thick book 'The Stand' By Stephen King. So far I'm on Chapter 2 and surprised how quickly it delved into things. Everyone said it was really boring until around page 50. I'm finding it already exciting- I can't wait to get further into it.
vicwithacam: (my angel)
2013-01-16 06:22 pm
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Today at school

Well considering we are talking adventures from school I thought I would let everyone know what happened today.
I was really excited about heading to school today because Quinnton was going to be there to chill out at the pride center. We texted each other as I headed to school; he was taking science and apparently talking about the earths crust made him think about pizza and he was starving. So once we both finished with class I took him to the caffeteria to get something to eat.
We get there and found out to his dismay that there was no pizza being sold so we went to the mall acrossed the street to get him some pizza. The food court was almost completely empty as we walked over to the pizza area. He ordered pizza while I went to grab a drink for myself.
We sat together and just talked. It's really weird for me considering I'm normally really shy around people and then he and everett showed up and I opened up to them and the pride center immediatly. I'm myself and that's awesome as hell. We walked back to the pride center and joked around on the way over.When we walked into the pride center there were three others talking happily and him and I sat together on the floor and hung out until he had to go to class.
Friday him and I are going to subway and chilling out, it's going to be pretty great.

Another question for my readers: I've been thinking about putting my story up here. Like my life so you all have an idea on who I am and stuff. It's pretty depressing but would anyone want to read it or should I just not even bother putting it up here?
vicwithacam: (me?)
2013-01-16 12:47 am
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School Started

Alright so school started monday nice and early, I was excited to be starting my class but most importantly seeing friends that I hadn't in nearly a month. My friend who's dad was recently in the hospital greated me and I gave her an old Doctor Whoves shirt that my ex had given to me. Her dad is doing much better. We spoke a bit more before another friend of hers showed up and spoke with us both before recognizing me and apologizing for not realizing who I was before. I have terrible memory and had forgotten him myself so I apologized as well before he reminded me that he was the creator of the pride center of my college and told me I was welcome there any time.

Now I wasn't originally going to tell anyone this because I don't think it was important, after all I am male but I am transgendered (ftm to be completely honest.) and I don't really want to admit it due to the fact that I don't want people to think of me as less of a male. But I digress; I went to math class soon after and my teacher was amazingly nice, she had a good sense of humor and had a wit about her that I adored. Also a plus she told us straight off there will be absolutely no homework in her class (:D) she told us that we needed to study in case we had surprise quizes. Now when I went to a study I was happy to realize this math is what I took in 8th grade and am confident I will pass it.

After she called roll she began talking about her requirments for the class and right in mid sentance there was an extremely annoying sound of the fire alarm going off. She sighed, rolled her eyes as if this sort of thing happened a lot before irecting us down the stairs and to the parking lot. We were let out of the class early and I went immediatly to the pride center to chill.

Now in my school I assumed I was the only transman on the whole campus. Actually I was fairly certain of it. I went into the pride center and found it surprisingly fuller than it had been the semester earlier. There was at least 10 people in there besides myself. One of them named Denna who is a mtf who I think will become a really close friend of mine was missing from there. So I sat down and talked with the others in the room before I heard the door open and I saw Denna with a young man. Everett was his name, he was super nice, into the same stuff I was, as well as a cosplayer.
We hit it off almost immediatly before Denna started talking about another young transman who she had met earlier that she was going to bring to the pride center after his class was finished. We waited contently, everett and I talked about all sorts of things from Supernatural, to Doctor Who, to even (to my surprise) Marble Hornets. Then Denna left and came up with the young man Quinton who mind you is absolutely amazing.
He looked a bit uncomfortable at first but after a bit of talking with Everett and myself he settled down and was super nice. It was a lovely day, we all exchanged numbers, and it's just the nicest thing.

Skip to today: I was unable to see either of the two sadly because my only class of the day started after they left for home. So I went to class and was surprised how confidant I was and the fact that I was passing as a male, it's a pretty big deal to me and I can't begin to describe how exciting it was to be considered one of the guys.
Class started; the teacher was amazing. She was sweet and funny, she kind of reminded me of my old 6th grade teacher who is still very close to me. She joked around with the class and even got one of the wilder guys to admit she was by far his most favorite teacher in the school that he's had. We wasted 45 minutes just visiting and getting to know her before she started role call. Now in math class I had been more or less ok with being called by my birthname due to the class being so large (roughly 100 or more students), no one looked to see who was called in the math class. English was another thing; there was about 45 students at the most in the class room, all of us were already getting along and when the teacher spoke the names were loud and you had to be loud for her to hear you. She went down the list slowly, calling girls pretty, commenting on other people and smiling happily. When she got to the Ls I realizined a)she's going to call my birth name, everyone will know I wasn't born male and b)I will no longer be able to pass as male in this class ever again.
She got to my name, I crindged before slowly saying a soft "here." my voice has been trained to be lower so when she heard my voice she looked up. She saw my face and said my birthname again questioningly as if she couldn't believe this boy in her class had a girly name, she double took on my appearance before moving on. I looked down, had a bad feeling in my stomach and waited for class to be over.
After class everyone left and I talked to her about two things. One thing is that there is a lot of things that has and could possibly happen in my family after she told the class things had happened to her and she may go through crying spells in the middle of class. I asked her straight out if it was possible if I could get up from my desk and hug her if she ever did cry and she said yes, immediatly got up and hugged me and kissed me on the cheek. I told her that I had a lot going on in my own family and that I had crying spells every now and then and I would have loved for someone to hug me so I would do it for someone else if the occasion arrived.
After that I was about to leave and asked her if she could please change my name on the roll call to just vic. She immediatly did and hugged me one last time and she was the first ever adult I ever came out to in my real life. She was really nice about it and told me she was there for me, that she loved and cared for all her students, that if I needed anything I could talk to her. She was the nicest thing.
I get the feeling that this school semester is going to be great.
vicwithacam: (angry noms)
2013-01-11 01:36 pm
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So last night was a mixture of productivity and just full on angst due to a couple factors. I went walking with my grandmother for around 2.6 miles but we started super late and ended up with me losing feeling in my fingers for quite a few minutes which was a pain. The good part about the walk was the talks we tend to have during them; they tend to be on the more silly side than serious which is always fun considering I love to laugh.
We went home and watched Dick Tracy (think that was the name of it), which was a far better movie than I thought it would be. We watched a movie right after that that I had wanted to see for quite a while; Green Lantern. It was really good, bit sad that it didn't last longer but it was good all the same.
I worked on crocheting a bit and learned how to work a round and it was amazing and I am so proud how much I have learned in just a matter of days. I look foreward to continuing it.

The downside? Well, last night I found out that Attack of the Show, which is my favorite nerd show about anything and all things that nerds are into is being canceled. It didn't shock me, after all after the main host left it just kind of went down hill but all the same, they had been airing live feed of comic con and things I enjoy every single year and to be without them will be very sad for me.
I sat down and watched the episode quietly and relived the good times with it before it finished and Xplays turned on. I'm not sure if it's canceling but thats kind of what I got from it too and now I'm like "B-But my series ;_;" So I'm a bit sad to see it go.
Another thing was the friend that was going to come over canceled due to her dad needing to go to the hospital because he had open heart surgery a month ago and still hasn't recovered. I'm worried about his health and I really hope he's alright.
vicwithacam: (Cass)
2013-01-10 08:08 pm
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Selling things

So recently my grandparents became unemployeed and we're struggling a bit for money as well as I need a few things. These things inlude anime and manga that I no longer watch or read. Most of them are in extremely good condition; I take extremely good care of all my books treating them all like my Bibles. The only ones that aren't treated well were ones my friends had borrowed and will cost much less.
Anyways I need money for college books, a new computer,GMX money, and to hopefully help with the bills a bit. So any bit of money would be awesome.
Good condition manga will be $5 each instead of the original $10 that I bought them. If you're interested then please let me know because I will only make a paypal if I know for sure that things I post will sell. So with that said lets get this show on the road

Manga

-Absolute Boyfriend 1
-Aishiteruze Baby 1-3
-Fruits Basket 1-23 + fanbook-cat-
-Full Metal Alchemist 1,2,5
-Hetalia 1-2
-Naruto 1,16,17
-Onepiece 1-6
-Reborn 1-2
-Tsubasa 1,16,17
-Tokyo Mew Mew 1
-Tokyo Mew Mew La Mode 2
-Me and My Brother 1-2
-Death Note 1-12 + Another Note:LA BB Murder Case

Anime
-Death Note Season 1-2 ($50)
-Lucky Star vol 1 ($5)
-Death Note vol 1 ($5)

If there's anything that catches your eye please let me know <3
vicwithacam: (me?)
2013-01-08 07:27 pm
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About me

Alright so some know a bit about me but may as well say hello and who I really am.

Anyways; I'm Vic, 18 years old and have been roleplaying for nearly 5 years. I tend to be a little bit of a fanboy. I enjoy a lot of TV, anime, and books. So quick brief list of the ones I enjoy, just bare with me everyone hopefully you will see some that you enjoy as well.

TV: Doctor Who, Sherlock, Supernatural, Torchwood, Glee, United States of Tara, and Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
Anime:Black Butler, Fruits Basket, One Piece, D Gray Man, and FMA
Books:Good Omens, Sherlock Holmes, Anything by Dean Koontz, and recently got into Brian Keene.

Other than that I'm in college, working on becoming a writer and possibly a teacher to help me on my way to becoming a writer. I spend most of my time either attempting to learn new things or watching TV while rping. I'm a bit of a boring human being but I'm trying my best on becoming more and more social.Also I have a couple websites

[tumblr.com profile] mirrorverseluver
[livejournal.com profile] deviltrapdemon
[plurk.com profile] vicwithacam
vicwithacam: (Cass)
2013-01-08 01:14 am
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Shopping

So today my grandparents were talking of heading to go get groceries and let me go to the mall and shop for a bit. I first went to Best Buy wanting to get the 5th season of Supernatural. Mind you I got into the show maybe 3 months ago, and am now on season 5 of the series, in absolute love with all of the characters.
Plus: I found the DVD for $44.99 and was a bit worried, after all I only had $71 dollars on me. I had gone wanting to get season 5 and 6 so when 8 came out I could get 7-8 and then watch 9. I went to the checkout and took $50 out of my wallet when the cashier told me I only owed them $30.30 which was awesome for me. I paid it and went on my way, planning on getting season 6 when I got back to college next Monday.

I walked to the second mall acrossed the street and bought another book by Neil Gaiman called "Neverwhere" it looks beautiful. I also bought myself a Hobbit bookmark of Bilbo Baggins. So TV shows to watch and Books to read what could make it better? Welp, a friend is coming over in a couple days to come hang out; it's nice considering she enjoys Good Omens, Doctor Who, Sherlock, Supernatural, Torchwood, etc.
vicwithacam: (dean/castiel)
2013-01-07 01:03 am
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Crochet and job

Welp, I decided to wait to get a rabbit; I didn't have the funds for it at the moment but I am getting everything needed for it one thing at a time. Tomorrow I am going to get a cage from one of my friends and a hutch for it as well from an old teacher of mine.I checked for items to buy it in an attempt to find out how much it would cost for me to own one and was surprised I need only a small sum of cash. I will admit I am a bit sad because of that but I will get it all in due time, most likely after I get a job.

As for crochet; I got a starter kit this morning and just learned how to do it 4 hours ago and have already mastered single and dubble crossed stitch! That's a pretty big deal for me considering that I am not normally so quick to learn something, it was a wonderful experiance. I have been practicing for a few hours and now feel pretty confident in what I have learned so far. Hopfully when the week is over I will be able to actually start on a scarf.

Tomorrow I am getting up bright and early to go on a job hunt hurrah, hopefully I will be able to get a job pretty easily. I really do need something to do beside sit around all day and get into other TV series and crocheting now a days.A job would be nice as would getting back to classes, man it's crazy. I actually must admit that I love the fact that I crave learning now instead of begging and pleading for time off it.

The only thing I really enjoy about my free time is the ability to roleplay when I want but other than that, nothing much.
vicwithacam: (phd in horribleness)
2013-01-05 09:33 pm
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Application

Well I'm assuming once school starts I'll be having a bit of a hard time doing things like apping for games on here. I have one week to work on the app I want to get finished which would be for Aziraphale so wish me luck.
vicwithacam: (pic#)
2013-01-04 11:28 pm
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Jay's sexuality on eway

Man, when I made him on entranceway I really didn't think about it. In actuality I didn't think I would ever say what he was because I didn't think he would want anyone, he never dated anyone in the series. He's a bit to shy for a normal relationship as well as paranoid, if he went back home he could never return and leave whoever he liked behind possibly forever and that's something he would be extremely worried about. But tonight I thought it over; he does have a couple crushes on eway at the moment, most would be pretty obvious though I think one would be surprising to Dev :P


Anyways Sexuality wise Jay is very much pansexual; he would date anyone if he liked them. He has been alone for a long while now, very scared that if he got close to anyone he could possibly bring them to their death, dooming them to a life of running away from an entity no one knows how to stop. But here in wonderland he's more worried about dissapearing and never seeing his significant other again if he did leave. The one thing I'm seeing happening with one of his crushes if Jay having a break down over the fact that once Alex permanently goes home m!Alex might not exist and he definately won't see him ever again.

So without further ado here is his crushes. Currently he only has two, both seem pretty obvious to me but here we go anyways:

Mirror Alex: He's amazing and he made him feel amazing and normal and loved and Jay just adores this man.

Tim: It's a slight crush and I'm not sure if it's because he was honestly someone he wants to care about or the fact that they both are working together to get outof the situation at home together.